breathless

Planning a trip or journey needs skills, efforts and studies.
even in our daily lives, we have so much to plan everyday.
i always believe things go in plan gives out much more security although some people tend to like surprises and handle the unexpected.
and thats also why i also in faith that Backup Plans are crucial.

for instance, prior to leaving a restaurant i dislike at the first sight, i should have a place in mind where to go next. or prior to resigning, one should find another new job beforehand.

but i heard the same sentence from two different people last week.
" I dont have a backup plan"
for me, when someone still has to put what is going on to a halt without knowing whats going to happen next signifies helplessness and clueless.
the circumstance is to an extent that he/she not able to plan anything further.

and so im going to apply for hospital placement next week.
with uncountable uncertainties:
is there enough allocation?
would i get the only hospital i have always wanted?

as much as i realize the importance of backup plan,
this time around i dont know what to do next.
i cant predict how to curb if i cant the place i want, how long i have to wait if i dont get a job this time.
i should as well tell if i were asked whats my next step--
"I Do Not Have Any Backup Plan This Time".



with Faith, the only helpful thing left in this predicament.
i hope i would be happy with whatever comes next week.



talk again.

btY