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this tab has been here for 5 hours when i am typing this sentence. 

have been so long.....wards, studies, feeling of lacking of incompetence...all these strike all this while. 

they have been performing so great, i mused. the old negative badass attitude of comparing with others came back  again. i admit i compare sometimes, much better than those hypocrites that denied of comparing but compete with others much more aggressively with me. faked.....

what a little society, i think. 

because we lacking of some confidence, some chance, some right moment, some words, some piece of thoughts...we lose. 

no complaints. 

i wait and i hope and i pray. 

tension just cant go away like that. 

oh yesh.....the little book in bag is still there though. 

the water from tap is still yellowish sometimes..

jescica from Korea medical centre has not replied my email that sent to her last week, 

luck is not by my side most of the time

and noone here gives a shit about your problem. 

and i dont even give a shit to their matters too. 

there is always someone and something that is within your sight but you have to ignore that for better life. 

things are just ironic as that

 it has been quite long to talk with strangers without motives. 


just if you can transfer all things into brain in one shot. 


forgetFUL, Boonteong