I am blurred

had been trying to spare out time to write something here before my exam,

alas, tab was opened and i would close it without sharing anything eventually. 

i have found out a number of things in this short semester, 

-easy time passed very very fast, dala! i am turning year 4 in july after finishing this honey moon semester. 

-people judged you from a single performance, the current one, not your hard-work from the past, your passion towards the future. yup, i was judged by someone, because i did not prepare for that topic. 

-they are so complicated, i dont even know how should i express myself and behave in my own way when people are around. i couldnt breathe smooth much more frequently. 

-you must always learn really hard in medical field.
-stay alert and cautious, im giving myself lessons to remind myself for that.

lessons can be very unbearable, i lost few hours of sleep before of sleeping because of that.
how to fix the mind correctly?

-time spent with parents is precious, i hope spouses will appreciate time with each other like how they spend the time with their own parents. vice versa is applicable too. 

things can be bought with the bloody money, not human feelings and presence of loved ones. 

if you love the belongings and fun so much, why did you choose to live with other people?? 

the bad thing about me is that, when i am tired, my eye lid can be really dropping down till the extent of covering my whole eye. i fail to control my temper when im too tired. 

why couldnt i know they are tired? 

better actors actress indeed.

i miss old time alot, time where i can talk whatever i want, screech whatever i think, laugh, smile and sad.
i miss old time alot, because i have just lost them.

btY. going for year 4.