Black

the last time i had this kind of feeling was long time ago,
i guess.....
when JPA oversea scholarship was out and my name was not in it?

this time the feeling was spread nationwide. except them with great balance.
i am not trying to make this a racial issue, but i have foreseen the life will be more hard for us. when i saw how irresponsible the lead loser's speech was.

step us? we are used to that when you are above us.

i persuaded myself, live goes on, only in a harder way.

Probably,

-we need to save more more more money to pay all the prices of necessities that mounted high.
-i need to cut down a lot of things that i think can make my self enjoyable in order the safeguard daily living cost.
-time like "banana" money will reappear again.
-i want to work so hard to lead an ordinary and hard life.


because when i have a right to make a move next time,
i will be 27 by then, my parents around sixty, the small nephew 5 year old. how much to suffer in these 5 years?