the things we cant say out

the bigger and old i grow, the more i realized everyone lives as a person,

that sounds absurd.

we were relying on family when we were babies and kids,
they stuck more to friends when in secondary,
but now..........


i was so lost in certain point before i made up my mind.

i have just completed geriatrics medicine posting, in which old people more than 65 year old constitute the patients group.
aging starts after second decade, the literature says.

so i have the right to talk little bit about aging, since i am turing 22 year-old.
so far, i dont dislike aging,
i enjoy little bit of wisdom inculcated in me by time and people,
i savor experience of continuous learning, which i was too young to begin it earlier.
indoctrination of lessons and views is invaluable.

if i were asked to choose what to dump from things i have gained,
i would have dumped the seconds whereby thousands of words come into my  brain before i speak something out loud.
it can be truly displeasing...
i dont have to dump this, when i choose to be quiet instead.


the shield that was broken, had brought some injuries.

i was insomniac for 3 days out of 5 days last week, i showed no interest to people around, i thought i was becoming depressed patient.
when the balance point found, it resolved.



i think the mind is really dangerous sometimes.



i am grateful for people that has been around always, from words and other positive signals, i saw you.