the markers of memories

i have been having much much more more free time to stop and look back.

recap some readings, some writings, some talking.

i looked through thousand of old photos in facebook too.

i wouldnt realise so many place, so many people so much sweet moments i had been through.

with that, i was dragged back to the old times..... reminiscing those precious experience.

 the photos mostly taken when i was in matriculation, post-matric break, 1st year - 2nd year medical school years, my overseas trips to singapore and hongkong.......

there are 2 or 3 photos of my stay in sabah.....the number of photos just fit the weightage of sabah life in my life. it exists, but has not been too significant.

of course i was wondering, how are those in my photos doing recently, do they miss me sometimes?

reality leaves no much spared space for us to indulge in memories, but i do miss them when i glanced through the photos. they taught me alot, they helped me alot. the "they" here encompassed all frm families, friends and some anonymous when i attended seminars.

the feelings and joy cant be the same anymore when we meet each other somewhere in the the future.
either it is by chance or by meticulous arrangement by certain planners, i have never been any planner though.

and i do ponder what they have gone through and make them change.
is that same as what i am going through? or worse than mine? or they actually dont change?

when we did meet in the past with different identities and at different places from the photos, i still enjoy talking and mingling with them.. the chances is getting lesser lesser for us to meet anyway... and frankly my mind is fulled of matriculation mates when i am saying the them in this paragraph. much complicated huh? it has been a long time my dear friends, how have the lives been.

i dislike the situation whereby we meet each other, we see each other, but we are running out of topics. this is kind of contaminating the closeness once we shared before we were separated to various paths last time.


i cant all the things that happened except those memorable ones. i am curious how much could you recall?
but at least this memories is little more vivid than those i went through in the past 2 and a half years in university. i dont really know what was happening throughout these years, again exclude the special and memorable moments. there were some admist those i dont really care to recall, because of you.

these are some of the photos that touched the "me" from matriculation deep inside me alot..

these 2 marked the beginning of final 10 days and the last day in KMM.
i know i have been clinging to this issue for such a long period.
people may say you have graduated from there long time ago, get a life!
trust me, i am getting a life, but i dont want to lose any part of my life once i had there.


because i have lost myself in finding another me, i want you to retain the true side of yours. 

i am always grateful there is always a place for me to rely on and put everything down when are things seem to be not right.

when you dont know, dont ask 
btY